Christmas is different now

10 years ago these days would have been very ecstatic moments. My heart would have been field with excitements, joy and surprises. Christmas is something to wait for, right? I am not trying to sound lonely, first and foremost. I just want to make a point. And don’t get me wrong Christmas is still a happy season for me. Maybe not just the way I define happy before.

Being a kid is a bliss. It is so amazing that our mind have been into a state of pure and innocence. Pure — remember when you still answer the question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” and without hesitation you will answer what your heart speak. And surely, time stops when you were just playing and nothing to worry about. Innocence — when was the last time we are not worried. Worried by everything: bills, emotions, sentiments and responsibility. When was the last time?

And now, as i sit and muse everything back, i couldn’t help but notice “Things are different now”. Celebrating a happy Christmas does not necessarily equate to an ecstatic emotion. It could just be a nice and calm feeling.

things will go my way

Things will go my way
the calling

I came to tell you
How we’ve all began
Nothing seems to work out right
I’m broken down again
So hold me now
And say it’s not forever
Maybe someday
In time

Things will go my way
Things will go my way

Some words to keep you going. If right now is a dessert and may seems there will be no rain in the near future, heads up. Its not an easy thing to do. But i am not asking you to do it. I am teeling you. Its for your own good. Things will go your way.

they come, they go — they never leave

In life, the minimum number of people that will come into you will be countless. At least more than half of them will leave. The remaining will either a) stay and just stay with you b) stay and touch your life c) stay and be something in between.

Dont believe in goodbyes. There is no such thing.

 

Do it good — no, best — or dont do it at all.

Regrets are invetable. This is a proven fact. “Everyone of us has wasted amount of time that could have been put to better use”, as once i’ve heard. Moreover, mistakes can never be avoided. We are made not to make mistakes but allowed to make some. So here’s a thought: we can be cautious with each decisions we make or we do something, either we  do it good — no, best — or dont do it at all.

Cautious. Who isnt? If this life can be equated to something else then everybody would have gone that road. But it is never intended that way. In fact, have we gone this far and still we are ignorant as everybody who passed here. We declare that we are happy by making “safe” decisions that we made. That at the end of the day, we can look back and look at the life we took, that we avoided mistakes, that the bumpy road was never our path.

Passion. anyone? If everything you did — irregardless how much regrets it may bring – and you did it with might, proclaiming to life, yelling, that “Hey! I endure”. That “Hey! I am taking this path because at the end of the day i wanna see my life not the one who avoided mistakes but the one who beats it, the one who took the bumpy road and endure every regret within it”. Because after all, whats more fulfilling than life is not how fine things were but the feeling of ‘damn, i have lived my life and i did it well.‘

I am in no position to speak about what’s right or wrong about life. After all the said and done, the more i try to ask for its meaning the more it blurrs right before my eyes. And i realized, does anyone got life correctly? No one did. Probably, no one will. So I may not know what life is, but im sure what life isn’t. Its not about avoiding mistakes.

I am a passionate man.
I intend to keep it that way.